Saturday, July 26, 2008

Rather Depressing Saturday Evening...

I'm sitting on my own on this cold Saturday night, listening to the Marie Antoinette soundtrack and thinking WAY too much!! Didn't feel like cooking for one (and too broke to buy take-aways) so I ate toast and smoked mussels for supper!!

My friends in PE are having a braai (BBQ) tonight, and I wish with all my heart I was there!!! Laughing and talking a bunch of crap!!! Especially since I'm ABLE to laugh now. Hopefully I'll be there for a visit again soon. Miss them so much! Even missing an ex boyfriend who stayed a friend but whose new girlfriend doesn't allow him to have contact with me!! Sorry, I'm losing track of where I was going with this, lol!

Feeling a bit sad tonight, although not sure why. Various things probably, and def as a result of all the thinking and feeling a bit lonely. Had a cool day though. Went shopping (window-shopping for me!!) with Pat and her friend Mary. Very nice! Tomorrow Julian and I are going to visit another tourist destination after church, which should be fun as well. At least it won't be a boring day!!

Monday morning I'm going to go blow a quick FeNO and flow loop, and then it's off to Pretoria again 'till Wednesday. Wednesday night is church cell, Thursday night is a tx network meeting (haven't been to one of those before...). So it's going to be a busy week!

I'm just drinking some hot water and lemon juice for my kidneys that work so flippen hard, and then I'm off to bed!!!!!! And hopefully fall asleep FAST.

5 comments:

Bree said...

If u come online we can be miserable together!

Cheer up buttercup!

drained in sj said...

I suppose we are all entitled to a depressing day here and there. Makes us appreciate the other days.

take-aways....
you talk funny...
;)
-Lou

Jen said...

I was just wondering why you live so far from your friends and family....is it to be close to the hospital where you had your transplant?? I am currently on the transplant list here in America (Florida to be exact) and my transplant center is about 4 hours away from where I live so once i have my tx I have to live up there for about a month once I get out of the hospital but then I get to come home after that. I was just curious I didn't know if you lived far away by choice or if your dr.'s recommended to live closer. I have been reading your blog for awhile now (ever since CF husband first had you on his blog when you were in the paper) and I am SO glad that you are doing so well...it really gives me hope!! Thanks for writing!! :)

Anonymous said...

Alice .... come and visit us!!!!!!! It would be so much fun! Come on, man!
*antoinette

Anonymous said...

Hey Alice, I'm sorry you're lonely and sad. I have my moments too, with Gail & Fraser i Cape Town - actually I have regular pity parties. It's tough being far away from family, home & friends. I know I'm the same age as your Dad, but if you ever want some company or to go for a movie or something, just sms me - no point in us both being miserable, OK. Peter Leid.